testing

I look at my progress bar and wish I could move it up, even just a fraction, but I haven't earned the right to do that yet. We are in the same pattern, things are good but there are still discussions now about past lies I have been caught out on, going over and over them. The question keeps coming up, what else have I lied about, and I don't honestly know. I don't know what lies i have told to who. is a tough fact to acknowledge. I'm not comfortable with it. So is down to me to change it. I hate myself sometimes.