feeling good

I do think there is a change happening, slowly, but it is happening, I think. Clearing out a cupboard I found an old bag full of papers that i think I have dealt with, but am not sure. A few weeks ago, I would have stashed the papers somewhere, waiting for the opportunity to get rid of them quietly. I haven't done that though. They are all together, in a bag, waiting for my wife and I to go through them together. If she says I should have dealt with these things a long time ago, she's right. No way around that. But at least I haven't tried to hide it from her or cover it up in any way. So, I think it is fair to say that my first test is passed. I'm not looking forward to going through what I found with my wife, but at least I know that this is not something that I have tried to hide from her. Dealing with the aftermath and consequences of that would be infinitely worse that the hour or two that it will take to go through all the stuff, and the rightful pointing out that this stuff should not be dumped in a forgotten corner somewhere in the hope it will go away.