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At 5 months things have really changed.  The horses have been sold, his work van and now his truck have been sold,  I think the horse trailer is sold (will know Monday).  I sold most of his work...

I can't imagine the rest of my life like this.  Doing all the things I have heard helps.  Grief counseling, working part time (although the job is a bummer), visiting daughters and grandkids,...

I will have two of my granddaughters staying with me this Thursday, friday and Saturday.  This is an annual visit but it will be the first one without papa.  It has been 4 months since he died.  I...

I am scared that I am heading for a major break.  I have gone 2 weeks without crying and breaking down.  I got a part time job to help with ss.  I don't like but it is the reasonable thing to do....

It has been a different two weeks.  Thought I was doing better but then the bottom fell out and it was like the first week all over again.  It really scared me.  When I got control after a few...

I don't know why my emotions have been all over the place the last couple of days.  

My ceiling fan went out.  My son-in-law took one of the blades off for me to take to Lowe's to match as close as possible since I have two in that room.  I have been doing better but when the man...

I helped my daughter and granddaughter clean their camper.  Her husband had to work.  Te last time I was in their camper Ron was with me.  It was sad bout another first to get thru.  So many...

Yesterday I sold Ron's work van. I was prepared to see it go.  I still have his truck and horse trailer.  The horses are gone.  I haven't' cleaned his closet yet, just not ready for that.  Mowing...

I miss Ron.

Positivesmower started,  grass blower started, tiller started (garden tilled), work van sold(buyer coming today), now have medical insurance, house in good shape,  supportive children and...

It seems like I post when I only have bad days.  Maybe I need to vent.  Today I took care of some insurance business and no crying.  It is sad but I am glad that I had no breakdowns.  Monday and...

The kids and grandkids came in for Easter.  Here for a week.  It was good they were here but there was so much Ron did when we had company.  First holiday meal without him.  Now that everyone is...

It's time to get up again.  I'll go to church.  Come home.  Maybe something will change.  Have a prospect on a job.  Maybe it will come thru.  Daughter coming next week with grand kids.  Maybe...

The last two days have really been different.  I seem to be in a void.  I have so much to take care of and I just quit.  I don't want anyone else telling me to get out, find a job and visit the...