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Tonight I will go to my second group meeting.  I am having to make myself go.   Last time I did feel better the day after.

I made it through the weekend.  I spent Friday, Saturday and  Sunday afternoon with my daughter and three grand kids. It is hard to play with  them because Ron and I were always a team.  But I...

Thursday was one of those give up days but you make it though it.  This weekend I am spending out of town with my daughter and three grand kids.  They keep me smiling.  Sunday I will go home.  It...

Too bad to even write about now.

Today I plan to go to the grocery store and get a hair cut.  It is a 15 mile drive to the nearest town for this.  I really want to do this without breaking down.  I could not hit the send button...

Well I finially finished our taxes but I just can't seem to file them.  It's like admitting that he's gone and next year it will just be me.  My goal is to push the send button by the end of the...

I went to my first support group meeting tonight.  At first all I could do was sit there and cry.  When I could finally talk it helped.  It meets every Monday.  Will try again next Monday.  This...

Today I am going to try to finish our taxes.  I'm hoping to be able to do it without a breakdown.  Tonight is my first support group.  My husband installed floor covering and was self employed so...

Today I went to church.  I would have been fine except when a lady told me that I need to get out more.  Get a part time job or join a group.  It will be 6 weeks tomorrow.  Making myself get...

I need to find a job and get out of the house.  The place I worked at for 17 years closed three years ago and since then I have worked part time jobs. Ron and I deceided the month before he died I...

I am having a really bad day today and don't know why.  I just can't seem to get ahold of myself.  I thought I was getting stronger but not today.

Today there is nothing to take care of.  That is a little scary.  It is really hard to be idle.  I am hoping that I will be able to find something useful to do.  Ron has been gone 5 weeks now....

I think i am ready to spend my first night alone.  I found a support group in the town next to mine about 45  miles away.  The first time i can go is wed.  I am hoping this will help me cope with...

My daughter left today to go home to her family who miss and need her.  She lives 7 hours away.  I have not ben alone since my husband died 4 weeks ago.  I have two other daughters who also have...

I am scared.  I know that he is okay.  Why am I so selfish.