muskrattiger
Status: I have left my mesages open ...I have a friend that we can only communicate through there ...so if any one wants to talk to me you can mesage me .......I have left an update in my jurnal ..wanted to shair my good newes ...
Mood:
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he always seamed to make things barable .....better .....I was out this morning ..with him helping him put the winter tires on the car ....but some bad weather is coming in ..and I just was getting...
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still angry ..still feeling empty like I just don't jhave much for anyone else ...but I was on ..with a friend and could I can still feel for others witch is a good sign ...not crying all of the time...
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I am very angry and upset ....since yesterday ....when I found out .......not only me but my parents were told so many lies .....when I was younger ....my mother is turning over in her grave...
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and it has left me feeling very empty inside ..like I just have nothing inside me to give ...like all my energy ..has just ..left me ..it is hard to ..be out of bed ..I want to cry ...it is hard to...
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my sister from here is out visiting my dad ..and the ther day he was doing so well .he was able to go for a walk ..on one of his fave rite ..places ...and my sister ..pushed ..his walker ....it is a...
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it seamed my dad has been having more better days ...than he was ...still has more bad days ..than good ..but he is still enjoying his good days ..and is not interested in talking of end of life...
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when we ....got to Vancouver island ...and my sister picked us us she was telling us dad was having a good day so we would be able to have a good visit with him .....but by the time we got to her...
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my sister who my father lives with ....put up a message on ...this ...space they set up so just my brothers and sisters Gould talk in there ...because we dident want my dad to here ..what we were...
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the migrain brok sometime last night so it is back Dowen to a 2 ....but I can feel ware it was so I just have to be slow today and ...not disterb it ..so it stayes ...at 2 ....I woke up this morning...
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but doing better ......the other reason I was having such a hard time ..was because I was having panic atacks ....because I have this nefue ...who has been on the street ....with his girlfrend...
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still have that migrain trying to take as few painkillers as I can ...doing medatation ...in bed or doing couch dusty ...getting a little bit done ....yesterday ..it was realy bad ...and my h had...
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this has been a very hard day for me ...I have been on the brink of crying all day and I haven't been able to get to sleep so I have taking a sleeping pill hopefully in will work and give me a little...
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I am puting it on the calanders ....and getting out the suitcases ...start packing ...getting my pills all filled out ....make sure I have ...everything I need ...so I can let some of this pressure I...
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My dad is in the hospital ....he schould be getting out in a cupple of days ....the doctors are ...disigreaing on ...somthing they saw in his ruin test that has to do with his liver ....but at this...
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out here .....I was outside ..cleaning out th pool ..half done when I rembered I was only supoed to do that cleaning if the pool was going ...so I stoped ..my h was..cleaning the well so hhe was...
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