hard times ..

but doing better ......the other reason I was having such a hard time ..was because I was having panic atacks ....because I have this nefue ...who has been on the street ....with his girlfrend ...into drugs ...and as far as I knew he was only keeping in touch with my father ..because he would give him some money here and there ...my dad had told me that he probualy wouldent even call him if he dident send him money ..........so tonight I told my sisters ..my fear ...and one sister ...is always making judgments ...and so I kind of gessed ....what she would have to say ..but ...she talks befor thinking ......ware as the other two ..actualy tryed to help me ....they relized my soul purpose ..was to not louse touch with  our nefue ....and one tried to tell me how to talk to him in privit in face book ..and got the phone number and address from my dad .........you see he has never answered me on face book ....so my other sister ..told me that he won't answer on face book ....all this time I thought he just dident want to talk to me .....but I still sent him messages..from time to time ....so than ..she made me a space for me and my nefue so we can talk in privet on my I pad .....so I sent him a mesage ..on it ....so I am hoping ..he answere me ..and I am hoping I don't mess it up .......this is very important to me .....take care ...God bless ..