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My dad is in the hospital ....he schould be getting out in a cupple of days ....the doctors are ...disigreaing on ...somthing they saw in his ruin test that has to do with his liver ....but at this point ...that is not a problem .....as far as I am concerened .......he is 93 ....and his lungs are ...failing ....he still has time ..but how much exactualy they don't know ..could be a cupple months ..to a few months .....my sister ask a year and they ...would not comit ......my sister called me tonight ....with the newes he has been in the hospital for three days .......he lives three plain rides away from me ......they have this specual ..face book that they are talking on ..so he doesent see what they are talking about ....because everyone is aranging when they can go visit ...............the hospital asked if he wanted to talk to someone about ...end of life and he said yes .....so they are arranging that for him .....and getting him some extra help at home he lives with my sister ......................I DIDENT know how I was going to get to see him ..because ..of this stupid depreshion and angizity .....i realy don't think I can make three flights ...there and back ...I am just not in that good a shape ....but I don't let people know that ....but tonight ...I just wanted to tell my family that ..I wouldent be going because my h is still going for tests and still has apointments for speculahest ...so he can't go ....it would also be stress full for him ..he doesent need that right now ..........so ......one of my brothers said I could go with him and he is getting my plain tickets ...for me ...I just got a beep he just sent me a copy of my tickets in my email ....and my other brother said he would drive me the .three and a half hours to ..the brother I am going with ..house ...so o don't have to take the buss ....so I will go a cupple days befor we leave so that I can get over the car sickness befor I get on the plain .....they are so good to me .......my h dident realy want me to go ..but since it is worked out this way he is much better with it ....
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so I will be gone from September 7 to the 14 ....this is so emotional ....from not thinking I will be able to go to having my family making sure I can go ......I know some times I schould ask for help .....but it has just never been who I was ....I just don\'t .ask for help ...I use to be the first to offer help ...but never asked for any help ...unless it was for my children than I would ask for help ...and I did ...after my first husband ..left ........and we were alone ....no car ....a out house ..me pregant ...and than the love of my life came back into our lives ....and I have never had to ask for anything since .......but I will tell you ..my friends ...I am not doing as good as I would hope I would be doing ...it just for me isent going to be posiball ..so I would say it is hard for me ...each day is hard ...but ..I do feel loved I do love ...I am surrounded with a loving family ...and ...you my friends ...are making this so much more easer for me just being here ...for me ...I am so thankfull ....you are my other family ....take care ..God bless ..
I will be praying for you. I pray that you have a safe trip, and are able to bear the long rides. I know how restless it can be to just sit. But good conversation, and soothing music will help. I am glad you are going to get to spend some time with your dad, and if he receives Hospice care, he is in good hands. They are really compassionate people. I couldn\'t do it, I tried. I got to attached and was crying more than the families. Again, have a safe trip, and think happy thoughts while you travel. :)
I\'m so happy things worked out for you, although this is a bad family gathering. I pray for your traveling mercy, depression, & anxiety. I pray that you & your family get through these trials & tribulations. I completely understand what you mean about asking for help, you\'re so lucky to be surrounded by loved ones. I don\'t have that! This journal entry was so warm because it ended on a beautiful note. Be safe, be blessed!! ***HUGS***
thankyou both so very much ...for reading my post and for all your kind words ..I am hoping he gets into the hospis when the time comes ...so they can keep him sleeping ..because it is his lungs failing and that is not a good way to go ..but ...I was with my mothr and my h mother when they pased ..and in the end ...the last two or three weaks ...they stop eating than they stop eating ..and at the very end it is all about breathing ....but at least at the hospis they keep them very comfortable ...as they schould ...........mspoeticjm ....I am happy you felt the wormth ...........I will get through this ....I need to see him this one last time to be satisfied ...to have that memory ....to give him one last hug to tell him one more time I love him ...to see him smiling and laughing one last time ...in person ...and when he passes I will rember the good ....thankyou for reading my post ...take care ..the both of you ....God bless ..
Oh my goodness. I am soooo sorry! You have so much on your plate right now. I am so sure that your family will understand. You should ask for help. That is what friends and family do...they should understand and not judge.
I hope that you are able to do what you feel the need to do. Wishing you a good trip and you made it ok with out too much anxiety.....it will well be worth it.
I\'ve been there and you will never regret it, now matter how hard it will be for you.
Sending much love and prayer\'s to you, my friend.
thankyou ... I dident have to ask my family for help ..what I did do was tell them ..that I could not do it take three flights to go see my dad ...because my depreshion and angizity was just to bad ....and ...my one brother ...said I could go with him and he got my tickets for me ...and my other brother said he would drive me the three and a half hours to ...the other brothers hous ware we are leaving from .....I know I need this ..to see my dad one more time ....thankyou for your kind words ...and your prayers ....take care ..God bless
HI SIS HUGGLES N CUDDLES FOR A START!!!!, I AM DEEPY SORRY SISTO LEARN THIS NEWS BUT AS YOU NO YOU REALLY DO NEED TOO GO SEE YOUR DAD! THINK THAT MAYBE WHEN YOU DO YOUR FIND THAT YOU WILL BEABLE TOO LET DOWN YOUR SHOULDERS, I THINK THIS HAS BEEN PART OFF YOUR DEPPRESSIONMAYBE WITHOUT YOU REALIZEING IT!.
SO VERY HAPPY THAT YOUR FAMILY ALL STUCK TOGEATER IN TIMES OFF NEED N HAS HELPED YOU OUT!!!.
AWWW LOTS ODFF FLIGHTS SIS BUT I BE WITH YOUIN SPIRIT ALL THE WAY!!! N KEEP YOU N YOUR DAD IN MY THOUGHTS N PRAYERSMAY GOD BE WITH YOU N HELP TOGUIDE YOU IN TIMES OFF NEED!!!.
TAKE THIS TIME TO TELL N SHOW YOUR DAD HOW MUCH YOU LOVE HIM,IT WILL BE GUD FOR YOUR DAD TOO SIS.
LOVE YOU LOADS DONT WORRY ABOUT ANY OFF US AS WE WILL ALL BE FINEN ONHERE WHENYOUR READY TO COME BACK ON OK!!!JUST PLZ PROMISE ME YOUR TAKE GUD CARE OFFYOURSELF TOO.
MISS YOU LOTS BUT TAKE AS LONG AS YOU MUST LOVE YOU SWEETIE HUGGLES N CUDDLES N GOD BLESS
XO DC...
yes I do need to see my dad ..at least I want to see him once more ..befor he pases ......I think you are right that this has all been a part of my depreshion ....because I watched him going dowen ....and the las time I saw him I new it had a lot worse ........I am lucke I have a good family ....loving and suportive ....thankyou ..and thankyou for the prayers ...for my dad ....thankyou for your prayer for me ..I can sure use them .....don\'t worry ...when we get together ...there is love all around us ...I will show him how much I love him and he will show me how much he loves me ....it is going to be a surprise ..he doesn\'t know we are coming .....thankyou ..I will take the time I need ...knowing that you will be looking after your self .....and everyone will be helping each other ....it was so good hearing ..from you ...I miss you to ...you are always in my thoughts and prayers ....take care ...God bless