Thanks to all of you who commented on my latest journal entry.  It's feels good to know I'm not alone in all this.  My counselor tells me that one day I'll wake up and just decide it's time to go through his clothes and get rid of them, but I'm certainly not there yet.  Going through his work room was hard enough.  I've been doing better these past two weeks except for yesterday.  I woke up crying and didn't make it to work.  But I've been adding an extra hour onto the time I do spend there and hope to start getting back full-time within the next week or so.  I'm still taking it day by day and I'm not ready to commit to anything yet.  I'm going to meet a friend today and do a little shopping.  Not that I need anything but just to get out of the house for awhile. Later I may make my way out to the garage and do a little cleaning up out there.  Gene had one workbench that is just covered with "stuff" that I'd like to get cleared off.  My son really hasn't had the time to do alot out there.  There are just some things I can't bear the thought of doing so I do what I can.  There is still a lot to do in his work room but it involves going through his coats and shoes and I just can't get myself to do that right now so I'll do what I can.