Consciouslove
Status: I am here so my inner child can be heard. She deserved so much more love and support than she got. She deserved to be heard and seen and absolutely not abused, sexually/psychologically. I am here, listening to her and expressing her so she can rest.
Mood:
Ok
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If the people in our dreams always symbolize the dreamer - can life be the same way? Do we have to seperate the subconscious from the conscious? Can the people I meet be as symbolic and "objective'...
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I had a dream last night where I was captured during a mass genocide and another woman was bashing my head in with a rock. She would hit me and I would watch my skull collapse in more and more. There...
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I am exploring the deep corners of narcissism/psychopathy and prior to this it has been debilitating. Now it is simply not easy, so far I haven't been debilitated into a deep depression. That is a...
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I have been feeling heavy levels of anxiety leading to more exhaustion and burnout. On paper this makes sense.. it is a givein symptom from PTSD, Complex PTSD, trauma.... though I keep finding...
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Last year I used a psychadelic for healing. It was wildly healing. As I watch Ram Dass today I want to connect this experience and his teachings. It is so interesting to me that a lot of the...
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Reflecting on Ram Dass, Buddhism, and Jeffrey Rutstein this morning... If god is consciousness and our minds are beyond reincarnation (which I do believe) then that means it would be smart for me to...
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A really wonderful resource I listened to..... forgive my notes as they are messy.... Ironically, I listened to this right before I was heavily triggered into a defensive state. So there's that. A...
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Well I was doing well. 3.5 weeks ago I reexperienced my ex and his chaos. It has taken this long to recover my nervous system but I do and I recover incredibly slowly. I blocked him and had many...
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I listened to a resouce by Jeremy Rutstein from Sounds True today! Mind blowing.He talks about the nervous system after trauma. He explores 5 states: fight, flight, freeze, attach and submit (though...
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Since my dad left, I have continued to feel a ball of confusion... Today, I will look at this like a RED Ball. This Red Ball is packed with emotions and sensations. It feels like loss, it feels like...
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I am reading a complex PTSD workbook and it is very validating and interesting to read. I learned today that healthy Adult Social Relationships can be very healing for fragmented parts of ourselves....
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Today I feel guilt and shame about how in love I was with someone so amazing and that I still pine for, that I still feel energetically. That I haven't seen in 10 years. I don't know where he is or...