I did it! I visited my old school today, the haunt from which the ghosts of my PTSD by molestation as a child emerged. Thanks for the support I received to make the visit. It went really well. I had to meet the principal. Still felts like going to the principals office.......Ha! But he was very nice, and I toured around the place and was reminded of the many good things that happened there, along with that trauma that touched 5 of us little kids back then. More than anything, I saw that time had moved on, that though that trauma may be wired into my memory, it was really the condemnation by homophobic religious parents afterwards that had that worst effect. Dealing with that by being able to shed the stigma by discussing it openly here with others who know what Im talking about, then, is the healing.

My trip ends tomorrow. This exposure therapy couldnt have happened until I was in the right point in my recovery, partly from being on this support group for a year. Now, as the great spiritual teacher said, its back to the mundane and its life challenges. Or as he put it as the means to stay grounded after transcendent mountaintop experiences like this one, "after the ecstasy, do your laundry.

Blessings, everybody. Thanks to all!