we have make up sex i go home then i call next daybecause i want to live in my house for awhil to change my behavior i yell too much practicing on son not to yell and not controling.( when i call thursday he say his sons dont want me to live with him he has to see what they want) anyway i call we talk he is happy i call again he is watching football i excuse myself to call back later can tell keith dosent want me to call at all. i call again because i didnt get to talk ,he tells me keith is upset that i call and he is going to change his number and hangs upon me. im angry i call imediately camly ask what the problem is state i didnt do anything to deserve this behavior he tells me he is still upset for me yelling at him for 4 hours. he wasnt too upset to make love to me for 2 hrs. realy i feel he is trying to please keith and me and that is why he is confused. i decided to please my self . cleaned house and put things away in my bedroom basicaly just moved in as if im going to stay here for good. right now cant do any thing paul want or ever. my family keep telling me forget what pauls wants do what you want. today i want to live in my house untill im loved the way i want to be loved. that is put god first then me then son for today. i wright this because dont want to forget it decided paul is drama queen. never been with a drama queen who was a man some times i am but will work on that. hate drama queens in me and others.
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E2. There is so much emotion in your family. Everyone is walking on the ceiling, anger, frustration, 2 hrs of sex. It is all passion and not much communication. You will know the old saying, two is company, three is a crowd. It is fact. If Paul is caught between you and Keith, he is a very unhappy man. He cannot choose between you. What can you do? Paul is your husband, that makes you number 1 in his life, whether he knows it or not. Being number one, means that you stop yelling, and start being number one. Keith is the child, regardless of his age. You and Paul are the parents, the Adults in the house. I think you need to act like an adult, not react to Keith in any way. Be grounded, do not leave your house, be the wife and mother that you are. Keith needs that. Paul chose you to be his wife, you are his wife, regardless of what the boys want. Be his wife. Stop yelling, listen, do what an adult would do.
Thinking of you.