Have finaly taken responsibility for my actions. why im in hesperia insted of being with husband. Became fearful of loosing him for 8 hrs . YELLED AT HIM FOR 3 hrs tried to make up for 1hr and courage to leave because he asked me too and I was running from him.. i love him didnt want to leave my home or would not have been so scared. does paul love me, yes maybe more than i love him or wouldnt try to leave me all the time. what you want the most or fearful of you run from the most -trueism. in anger management learned fear=anger. today have to get thru the day probly be bored to death. have a lot to be grateful for have the house of my dreams. not alot of money but if careful can get by. Share my home because choose to with david and tom . realy good people. only thing missing is love interest. well im going to make room for alot of friends and see if it fills the void in me. my goal for the year..
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Good goal E2. All that yelling gives me a headache though. I think your running because you want hubby to chase you, but mate, he\'s in his 80s. Give him a break. Stop running E2. Just stop, really. Stop and listen. Allow some silence in your life. It might be hard, but silence is very very powerful. Just stop and listen and see what you can hear.