destruxia
Status: I've seem to have fallen back down again, trying to stand back up but I'm breaking... I don't know how to fix this...
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It's been a while since I've been on this site, I have checked back briefly every so often but this is the first time I've written anything or majorly interacted with this site in a long time. Life...
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This darkness that shines like the sunlight.... it's always there.... following me no matter where I go.... it suffocates me.... and rips apart my soul fiber by fiber.... it honestly feels like i'm...
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This hurts sooo much.... lately I have been feeling really depressed again.... idk why... then tonight I realized... it's because everyone.... all my friends are going to parties at friends and...
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I can't believe it... I am almost done High School.... the one place that killed me the most is now almost over... it feels a bit surreal... to have gone through everything like that and then all of...
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I don't know what to even do anymore... I feel like I'm part of an always losing battle... The further I make it the harder it gets and the more pain I feel... this pain is just 2 much.... it has...
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Well, writing a new journal again.... Not gonna lie, there has been good times through all of this hell but lately I'm starting to wonder if there is even a point.... I have managed to find true...
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Well, 2 days ago my girlfriend broke up with me. After talking 2 her she has revealed to me the reasons. She wants more freedom (so initially to be able to do stuff with other people), she doesn't...
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I'm writing this as a way to both call for help and to vent about a problem that still hurts me.... It's about the hell I went through in THE worst High School in the world..... The school name is...
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Last night I had yet another PTSD Nightmare..... In the dream I was over at my moms and then after a fight her boyfriend started to hit me and abuse me all over again like when I was a child... For...
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Well, this is day 4 of not taking Cymbalta.... it was an antidepressant that I have been on and well, I had to suddenly stop taking them because we can't afford more pills.... my dad used to have a...
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Well, it's just another day.... sadly I don't feel happy... or anything really.... all I can feel is a numb like feeling inside of me followed by a deep pain.... it's from both my PTSD and my...
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Well, sitting here in class I'm starting to feel my PTSD act up and the symptoms of what I feel right now are: anxiety, difficulty breathing, shaking, racing mind, nervousness, feeling more...
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I've been so confused lately..... I have lost so many people I thought were my "friends". I have continued fighting the darkness of this world alone and now I realize how cold of a place this world...
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Well, it's been a while..... since i last did a journal entry.... well.... things have gotten somewhat better but bad things have still happened.... i managed to move on more from the people who have...
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I don't know what 2 do anymore..... I feel so upset and worthless..... I lost some friends lately..... they abandoned me..... left me all alone to fight the darkness on my own and I never once...
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