Girlfriend Tried to Kill Herself....

Well, writing a new journal again.... Not gonna lie, there has been good times through all of this hell but lately I'm starting to wonder if there is even a point.... I have managed to find true happiness a couple times but it always ends in failure.... Today after I woke up I found out my girlfriend tried to overdose on pills.... it killed me on the inside because of already losing 2 other friends.... the first death was when I was in Grade 8.... (I'm currently in Grade 12) he was fighting a battle with cancer.... leukemia to be exact... the death was hard because it was the first friend I have ever lost and so I didn't know how to react or what to do.... The 2nd death was when I was in Grade 10..... which also happened to be the worst school year of my life if u knew my life story.... my best friend Jay Hollett committed suicide.... I never got to say goodbye because he lived so far away and so there was always a hole.... Recently I managed to save up some money so I could get a dog tag necklace with the name "Jay Hollett'' on it.... I wear it everyday.... anyway, back to the main story of today.... after I woke up and found out about my girlfriend Karlee... I didn't know how to feel except for the blaming myself and putting myself down for every bad things I have done in life.... it's just hard..... she did it because she got upset with some of the things going on in her life and well, it still hurts.... if she succeeded in killing herself then I would lose it.... I would break down and just snap.... and probably do the same thing because I don't think I would be able to take it....