halike
Status: Its been a while, but I'm doing good for right now.
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That is what I feel like, I feel like I have been shot out of a blunderbuss spinning and hurling without any sort of control again. That I'm just grinding through life right now. I'm fucked up as I...
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I'm afraid of being that one person who just disappears when I die. Just someone who quietly disappears back into the earth. No one notices, no one cares. I would have lived a pointless life, a...
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So, I live by the music I listen to, I have an iPod and all that. Well this morning I left it in the work vehicle, and by the time that I realized that it was there I was literally too far away from...
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I wonder what drives us to do what we do. Why at times we cannot think "clearly". Right now I know I am not thinking clearly, I haven't been since thursday, I've had a bad event that happened to me...
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Well last night I failed my 100 days. And I failed again today…I guess thats all I'm good at, failing, I think I'm going to keep cutting for a while, it feels good, its so relaxing, like a drug....
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First off I was hoping to advance the progression bar by a percent each time but I guess I can't do that, so were going to stay positive and round up, I'm at 7 days with out cutting, and believe me I...
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Before I have had problems with depression, cutting, and even suicide. And it seems that life trends to repeat its self, and by that I mean everything. I start listening to the same music that I did...
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I might be the biggest idiot in the world. I still love her, I always have and its hurt me badly twice, yet I'd take her back in an instant. I'm not an idiot for trying, or even being wrong. I'm...
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I have been stuck thinking about my addictions, they are what I used to cope with my down and dark moods. They supported the moods. they numbed me. They felt good in so many ways. But I felt them...
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I recently talked to a friend that i trust. While talking to her I started to think about some things that I have put on the backburner lately. 1. I am lonely. - I work 3rd shift, 5 nights a week,...
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Well here is day one, kind of odd that I am starting at night. But this just got way out of a control, I have been "trying" to lose weight and in turn I have gained weight. almost 40lbs since...
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I am two. I am a lover who is alone. Every passing day reminds me more and more of how alone I am. And I hate myself more and more for it. My only reliefs are dreams, where I can revisit those...
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What is insanity? Insanity is giving up on the things you believe in. Insanity is giving up on your dreams. Insanity comes and fills the void of failure. If you get off the boat then you need to go...
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Ok, I'm tired of getting fucked by my college. It is literally like how we all imagine the DMV to be like. I just spent two hours in a waiting room in a VERY crowded office just to find out that they...
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I just keep going up, and like clockwork I go back down out of no where. All of the old memories and people that I've gotten over seen to come back to my mind. Those memories and people put me down,...
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