halike
Status: Its been a while, but I'm doing good for right now.
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It isnt mine, just something I seen, it wont let me post the text so here is the linkhttp://gabrielgadfly.com/poetry/why-i-hate-reading-maps
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Just listening to music and fighting back some tears beacuse of it. this is what I'm listening to http://8tracks.com/cloudncrono/for-when-you-are-truly-in-love
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I listen to music to forget you. The lryics, the drums, the guitar and everything else help drown the pain I feel inside. I blare the music to forget about you, and those emotions that plauge me, the...
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I'm thinking about killing myself right now. Ive felt so good recently and then all of a sudden I'm spiraling down. If I had a knife I would leave my friends house and go cut my wrists as deep as I...
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I dont know anymore. I feel like I'm betraying her, but in the same sense she has turned my whole life upside down. I seen her today and I literally felt nothing, no remorse, no anger, no regret, no...
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Maybe I do this to myself on an unconscious level. I was fine today, really tired, but I was ok. Then after talking to her I feel so unimprotant, so insignificant. I honestly dont know if I believe...
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started to diet
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I did some mediation but couldn't focus. On a bad note I reopened my vein again. It feels good to have done it. But its bad that I'm longing to do it again.
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went for a run after work, maybe a new habit?
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I just feel like I'm back where I started. I feel like I want to die right now. I feel like Im dying on the inside, I like it because I wont feel sad if I do, but I hate it because I will lose...
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Did some yoga, trying to make it habitual
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Well we're talking. I dont know how she sounds... She sounds like nothing ever happened, I hope that that is a sign she is going to forgive me.
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Something I just read said "I never get why people kill themselves So if you want to die you obviously dont give a shit about anyone else. Beacuse if there is anybody that loves you,you dont give...
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I probably just blew any chance I had at fixing this, but maybe she needed to hear it. I cant eat, i cant sleep, I still want to die. In fact I want it even more now.
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I feel like I am loosing my mind. Every moment I'm thinking about her, and everything reminds me of her. It brings me to tears. If we are done then that was the one person that I truly loved that...
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