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I look back to when I first joined DS (2007). I was mentally ill, physically and emotionally sick, 275lbs, a slob, blinding ocular migraines, dreadful hormonal issues, afraid of the world and just...

Things at work are a bit better.  The dumb boss is being put in her place by not just me...but many others...karma can be a bitch. The chemical low of the Lamictal being a bad fit for me is lifting...

And down and down I go. This the sadest I have felt since in the hospital.  I picked up Luna's pills them took myself to a movie - after that I was super close to 2 great stores that I wanted to...

Well my cat has an overactive thyroid - quite high. Pretty ironic given my thyroid issues...maybe she is bipolar too.  The battle of the pills will begin today...it will not be easy.  I pray the...

I feel an important friendship slipping away.  Ashley is very dear to me...but between her stress and mine there is a pull from her that is firm and rejecting.  I am pissed.  She was my biggest...

Took Luna to the vet. Getting there was the easy part...she was a terrible little patient. I have never seen her behave like that - she was why people hate cats. I will have the results of her...

OK, let the battle begin...taking the cat to the vet. It is a battle for 2. She freaks out about the crate (usually takes up to 45 mins to get her in there! She fainted once) and I freak out about...

Feeling very sad tonight.  Just gonna head to bed. Tomorrow I will take Luna to the vet.

BAD NIGHT SLEEP!  Needed to take another round of sleep meds at 6:00am.  Woke up at 3:00pm - after nightmares that were apocalyptic and terrifying. Woke up every 30 mins or so. My cat is sick and...

12:45 am (Saturday night - con't from 2 below entries) I did my best to deal with a painful day.  I was creative (thanks to watching at least 10 hours of HGTV) and I cleaned in spurts.  Made sure...

Shit, I am feeling CRAZY emotional right now....mood swings - mostly crying spurts that last about 6 seconds (no kidding).  PMDD kicks in...even with the YAZ.  SHIT SHIT SHIT.  It hurts.  I have...

I am just lying here...have not left in 2 days.  Exhausted. Feeling sad.

While writing in my "real life" journal in bed last night - I learned a ton more about my poor sleep and how far it goes back. Man - it made me cry...HARD.  My Mom really tried to create a pretty...

1:50am - feeling nervous about sleep...once again.  I did got some sleep from 8:00pm to 11:30pm. I am exhausted right now and have taken half of my night time pills.  I think what my shrink and I...

Ok, today is not as good as yesterday...but I am still on an upswing...so, I'll take it, sold!  I got out today for a moment - only ventured a few blocks.  My hood is a hard place to roam without...