how do i feel about sex:  i want it a lot.  that is what my mind is telling me.  i like to be dominated and i feel like that can only happen with the company of men.  it hurts when i am penetrated.  i rarely enjoy being penetrated.  i think it has a lot to do with the men i choose.  there are only a few that i remember that made me feel comfortable and i enjoyed it.  i prefer to perform oral on someone.  i feel guilty after the act.  i think low of myself.  i get angry.  sometimes i'll take it out on the other person.  in my mind i think he is my uncle who abused me as a child.  i think i am sticking up for myself when i did not has a child.  i also think this craving for sex is a bad habit i learned from my uncle.  i like to find one person and enjoy the sex with them.  i say them because although i am attracted to men sexually in my perfect world it would be real cool if i had a relationship with a women.