crystalicbabe

So new years was horrendous.  I'm so glad the holidays are over, not sure how much more of that I could take.

Sometimes I woder, does anyone really, truly know what they want?  It seems to me that we never do.  Once we decide we want something, something new comes along and confuses us.  I just wish it...

I hate thinking about things.  I just can't do it, it's too hard to think about.

Why, does it have to be such a mess?

ugh.. today is gonna be  soo boring..

so, I have kinda been eating the past couple days.  But, like I've only eaten a bit today and I feel really full, so I might not end up eating again today.  As for the guy friend, it's kinda...

So, I haven't actually purged the past couple days, but that's because I haven't been eating.  I just.. lost any desire to eat lately.  I've been getting so dizzy, and so hungry, but I just don't...

This week, has not been going well... theres just too much going on..

I messed up.  I feel like I've failed everyone.  I purged today. :( not having a good day.

So, it's day ten now.  I made it through day nine.  But yesterday, well it was hell.  See, I had decided I wanted to try and eat pizza, which is something I had not done in a very long time.  So...

Feeling a little tired this morning.  But trying to start out my day like every other day.  I hope that this week goes as well as last week, I want to succeed at this.

Well, it's the morning of day eight, and so far so good.  However, I do have some stress from the past trying to come back.... One of my ex guy "friends" texted me again this morning.. at like 2am...

I made it a whole week!!!!!!!!

Well, I've made it further this time than before, which makes me really happy.  Yesterday went well food wise.  I'm still trying to adjust to this eating more than once a day thing, which is hard,...

Well, I made it through day four.  Now at the start of day five, and I'm hopeful.  I'm actually eating breakfast at this very moment.  I'm going to try eating 3 meals and 3 snacks again today.  ...