crystalicbabe

So, I'm at work.. and the kids are eating chicken..I realised.. I used to love chicken.. and it's been so long since I've actually let myself enjoy it.. weird

Blah....

mirror mirror, on the wall,why do you show me a moster?this isn't what I wanted,It's not my fairytale at all.

So, I did something stupid last night.  Now I regret it.  I came home feeling like a fool.  Plus, It made me feel like a monster.  I hate myself.  It hurts to look in a mirror and see what I...

ugh... that's all I have to say right now.

So new years was horrendous.  I'm so glad the holidays are over, not sure how much more of that I could take.

Sometimes I woder, does anyone really, truly know what they want?  It seems to me that we never do.  Once we decide we want something, something new comes along and confuses us.  I just wish it...

I hate thinking about things.  I just can't do it, it's too hard to think about.

Why, does it have to be such a mess?

ugh.. today is gonna be  soo boring..

so, I have kinda been eating the past couple days.  But, like I've only eaten a bit today and I feel really full, so I might not end up eating again today.  As for the guy friend, it's kinda...

So, I haven't actually purged the past couple days, but that's because I haven't been eating.  I just.. lost any desire to eat lately.  I've been getting so dizzy, and so hungry, but I just don't...

This week, has not been going well... theres just too much going on..

I messed up.  I feel like I've failed everyone.  I purged today. :( not having a good day.

So, it's day ten now.  I made it through day nine.  But yesterday, well it was hell.  See, I had decided I wanted to try and eat pizza, which is something I had not done in a very long time.  So...