crystalicbabe

Still trying to figure out how to cope with all of this.  and it just keeps getting worse.  A couple of months ago I had a misscarage and now I might be pregnant again.  and hes still not even...

I dont have any idea what I should do about anything.  Knowing he cheated hurts so much I can't even begin to contemplate any worse feeling.  It hurts so much I'm physically ill.  I'm so upset. ...

Not feeling well at all right now.  I'm in a lot of pain. 

Well, since I'm not pregnant, I guess I've better get going on some things.  I really really need to loose some weight.  I've been having such a hard time.  And while thinking I could be pregnant,...

Well, test was negative, and I started my period today, 2 days early.  So in theory this means I'm not pregnant.  Now to get some birth control before I have another scare.

well, tomorrow morning I'll be taking a pregnancy test, and I'll find out if my life is going to stay the same, or change forever. 

Anyone who read my last entry would know that there is a possibility that I could be expecting baby #2 and I'm terrified.  Well, I'm more and more beginning to think I really might be pregnant....

So, things are not going as well as I had hoped.  My back had improved, but it was short lived.  After about a week of relief it acted up again, and was much worse than the last time.  I went to...

ugh

Sometimes, it's so hard to actually function.  I work so hard to make sure no one knows how terrified I really am of everyday life.  I don't leave my house most days, because then I feel like I...

well, my back is starting to feel better, hopefully this means I can really start working on my weight loss.  I'd really like to just get down to 250 for now, then go from there.  I feel so out of...

I'm still not feeling well.  My back pain has gotten worse.  It's so hard to keep up with a house and a baby when every move hurts like this.  

ugh.. don't feel good today

My back pain is almost intolerable now.  A couple of days ago, I had a very large spasm in my back and I think it pinched a nerve.  My lower back down into my leg is in so much pain.  It hurts to...

I'm feeling so down today.  It's like all of the life has been sucked out of me.  I've been depressed a lot lately, and it just seems to be getting worse.  Sometimes I feel like no one wants me...