Ellocin

It's 1:45am but I didn't want to go to bed without first writing a little bit here.  It was a much better day then it has been. My roommate and I communicated better today and made ammends and it's...

I can't seem to bring myself out of this depression that's consuming me lately.  I know it got worse after seeing the psychologist the other day but I dealt with that.  I know I was feeling more...

Got this in an email...not sure if all the words and pictures are going to show up...if they don't I copied them to a website...

I hate the way things are going right now.  No, I'm not going to do anything stupid...I just hate how things are going.  And I feel so so so evil inside right now I just want to make everyone...

The  Secret          The  Secret One  day, one friend asked another, 'How  is it that you are always so happy? You have so much  energy, and you never seem to get down.' With  her...

I'm making some major changes in my life right now.  Doing what I feel is right and will benefit me and others in the long run.  Yes, I'm isolating....but not in a bad way.  I just need time to...

Doing whatever i can to escape from how I have been feeling...to make it so I have no emotions....I don't care right now how bad that sounds...I just don't have it in me to "feel" and to act like a...

don't really remember much of the last 24 hours...and really that is quite fine by me.  I know I did have urges to cut/burn but I didn't give in to those.  I also know I didn't cope with things in...

Having a really hard time pulling myself out of this slump.  Last night I was feeling good again.  Today I am having an extremely hard time just with basic things...it takes so much energy just to...

Feeling better then I was earlier today.  Ended up falling asleep for a bit and just hanging out in the living room, playing on the computer, and watching tv.  That's about it.  Made a few phone...

I'm fucking not ever seeing that fucking psychologist again.  That just pissed me off more then I have been in years...how the hell is that suppose to help.  Ugghhhh!  There's no way...no...

It's a little after midnight and getting ready to head to bed.  Have an appointment tomorrow with my new Psycologist...I'm a little nervous because I don't know who it is...this will be the first...

Almost 1am.  Doing better today.  Slept in but it was kinda a grey day anyway so no big deal.  A friend was over to visit my roommate and me.  My roommate and I hung out all day, went to the mall...

1:40 am Well, there is good news.  The pesky little mouse is gone...it's sad but I didn't have to see it since my roommate got to it before I did.  I think it liked the bait in the trap the...

Trying to wind down for bed but I'm feeling sad because of the fire...10 houses destroyed for sure, over 300 damaged, and around 1000 people out not aloud in their homes tonight.  Click here to see...