don't really remember much of the last 24 hours...and really that is quite fine by me.  I know I did have urges to cut/burn but I didn't give in to those.  I also know I didn't cope with things in the healthiest way but I did get through it and feel better today.  I took a few ativan, an oxazepam, and drank 2 glass of wine...it was all that was left.  Worked on some word puzzle and then slept most of the time.  The best sleep I've had in months.  I even had cleaned up a little of my room though I don't really remember that.  And all my pillowcases are clean.  I dunno....was just odd.  I'm feeling alright today just a bit foggy but that's to be expected.  Whatever it takes to survive I guess.