Yikes...been awake since around 4am...so not cool.  Maybe feeling a teensy tiny bit better then yesterday but barely enough to even mention.  I soooooo want to give in and cut again.  I still might...I just wish I had something better here to do it with then what I have.  This stuff is all crap.  Maybe I'll buy something better after my appointment today.  That's an idea.  Yay...something to look forward to.   My counselor thinks I need to check back into the hospital but i am so not doing that again already.  I just got out like just over a week ago or something like that.  Nothing is gonna help this time anyway.  What's the point...sure I have days were I feel better...but ultimately I always feel like crap again anyway.  Why bother trying....like seriously...why bother?   What's the point of life anyway...

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The point of life is to know God, serve God and be happy with Him in Heaven someday! I agree with your counselor, you need intervention. Remeber you were very happy just a month ago. When we are sick and hurting we tend to forget that everything has a season and this too shall pass. You just didn\'t spend enough time in the hospital last time to get you better, it just gave you a breather, but not enough real relief. So go back and let them help you.
Unfortunately it isn\'t a perfect science, but they can help.
Nan