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- It's getting nice here. Sunroof open. Music loud. Sun out. People out. I just wish I could pick up the phone and say hey how's it going, what time do you want to get our child this week? I just want normal. I would do anything for it. It's...
- Ok it may be PMS playing part of the role but I just feel like I'm burning inside. I have this incredible desire to say something to him - anything. Be it good or bad I just want to say something. I'm so so tired of being consumed by the thoughts...
- Mine always said he hated life and people. Was suicidal (allegedly) and miserable. Never got any pleasure from life. Maybe moments of content but rare happiness. Do you think they are as unhappy as they often protest? I am always leery of those who...
- So for fun I Googled his standard dating username and up pops his picture and ad in "men interested in men". He would adamantly deny gay feelings, almost fearful of dicks. I feel just ill. I SO badly want to send him a link to the page.
- Was weird. Just didn't feel anything. I looked at his picture on social media sites after. It's the same pictures that always have been there but he looks like a stranger to me. I see nothingness. I felt nothing other than just an overall surreal...
- Went to therapy yesterday and as we were chatting my therapist said "well we talked about "his" relationship issues and failures through the whole ordeal". Yes, I agreed but it was the label of SP that allowed me to see it all. The Individual traits...
- I'm not referring to the dads who are part time or weekend dad's. Nor do I mean dad's who even somewhat acknowledge kids. I mean the dads who up and disappear like the child never existed. My ex convinced me that abandoning a child is ok because...
- I think discarding with abandonment happens when someone becomes a bigger liability to PSN than they are worth. My ex has discarded me like I was nothing. If he didn't know that the OW and I have talked in the past, I bet he'd still be contacting...
- He hurt me. He lied to me. He abused me mentally for years. He tricked me. He made me think I was a bad person. He really screwed me up. I said it. I don't know how to grieve or forget it. It's been 5 months since he just dropped me like shit...
- My ex was adopted as an older child. Early years in various foster homes. He was sexually abused my the adoptive father who later left the family and my ex became the male of the home. Most of this I have confirmed through family members so it is...
- Did you have a "heightened" sexual response to your ex PSN? Sex was like you never had it before - it was soulful. Do you have any ideas on why that was? My theory is that it was the mind screwing they did. That they wanted "every inch" of you to...
- Sometimes I go through days in a fog. Going through the motions consumed by my thoughts that have been unspoken. I never confronted him on what I know he is. I never said anything. I never told him.he doesn't exist. I didn't tell him that it wasn't...
- After all the love bombing and the chaos was present, my ex would once in a while say, "just walk away. I will only hurt you"..of course I would say that was not true. Or I would say I deserve to be hurt. Did anyone else's ever "confess" these types...
- Did any of you struggle with the brainwashing? I still succumb to it. Think I did him wrong with having the baby. That I'm evil. That I'm a whore. That cheating is ok. That not being in a kids life is perfectly ok - "afterall, someone else can adopt...
- And ask about our child. I don't want or need to know anything about his life. Nothing. I would do anything I could to have his dad acknowledge him. Anything. I Would give every penny back my son gets for support if he could have a dad that would...