tmommyof6

kind of numb today. not alot of feelings. i have kept mysef so busy so i wouldn't have to feel or think.

had a busy day. went  to my ed counslor today. went ok but didn't like all she had to say. i am so confused and fustrated. i just don't have alot of hope. my doctor even said i am to old and set in...

good morning to all. i still feel guilty about yesterday but it is a new day. yesterday someone asked me if i am scared to live without my ed and to find the real me(who i am). the answer is yes. i...

larry and i are doing great but i asked him to help me decieve my doctor today and that makes me feel bad. i had to be weighed today and i wore alot of clothes and weighed down my pockets. i feel bad...

pretty good day. i feel really good about this site and very encouaged and supported. i have not worried all day about my doctors appointmet tomorrow. still concerned but i think it will be ok....

i was told last month to gain weight. i have to go back monday and i am scared to death, i have lost. i haven't thought about it all month and now it's time to go and i don't know what to do. i am in...

today is off to a good start. larry and i made up and set goals together. i love him so much. i was also able to eat a small bowl of cereal and kept it down. i had mixed feelings but it's a start.

didn't eat and then for supper i pigged out and purged. i usually don't do this. what is wrong with me. why can't i beat this for my kid's sake if not my own? i am such a mess and don't know what to...

worst day ever. only ate two chicken wings and then purged. got hurt bby someone i trusted and no longer feel supported. i feel so alone. i just want to give up.

i feel bad. i am so tired and that makes me cranky. plus my kids are totaly fustrating me. sometimes i think they only love me or care for me if they get what they want. one thing i do know is that...

i am feeling overwhelmed again today. i'm just tired i guess. eating hasn't been good today and i feel like doing some self-harming. so far i haven't though.

i am feeling good because i know larry and the kids love me. i know the kids don't always show it but when push comes to shove they pull through for me. i am so thankful. at the same time, though, i...

felling good today but kind of tired. my kids and husband have been great today. my son fixed me breakfast but i only was able to eat a few bites. i hid the rest. then my family and i went to my...

may 12, 2007 my husband has been such an encouragement . i love him so much. he just wants to fix everything. i usually don't eat but today i did and the purged. i daily take diet/enery pills and...