i am feeling good because i know larry and the kids love me. i know the kids don't always show it but when push comes to shove they pull through for me. i am so thankful. at the same time, though, i am fustrated, confused, and tired because i feel i am a burden to my family. i am confused about why, when, or how this happened or how to beat it. i am fustrated because i can't seem to get my stuff straightened out. and i am tired, tired of fighting and not knowing how much more i can fight. i didn't eat breakfast. for lunch i had a couple of bites of hamburger helper, and about 10 jelly beans. i did better for supper. i had a sloppy joe and about a tablesoon of cottage cheese. i quess as they say, baby steps.