good morning to all. i still feel guilty about yesterday but it is a new day. yesterday someone asked me if i am scared to live without my ed and to find the real me(who i am). the answer is yes. i have always envied quiet people.lately i have been loud and wild. it is my way of covering up the pain i feel inside. i want to be more calm, quiet, honest, and aware of all my blessings around me. i feel like i have to hide, wear a mask, do it all myself. i need to be accepted by everyone. if someone doesn't accept me it destroys me. i don't feel valuable if i am not accepted. so yes, i am scared. i hate lieing and manipulateing others and ed stinks but it is all i know. the real me scares me. i hope ya all have an awesome day.
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stop feeling guilty! at just let the pain out because its destroying u!
hi, I wish i had answers to offer you but i\'m in the same boat. be strong and take care.
Hopefully learning that you don\'t need everyone\'s acceptance will also help you with your ED. I feel exactly the same way, a people-pleaser, that\'s why I\'m torn apart when someone doesn\'t like me, but I\'m starting to realize there\'s people out there that i can\'t stand, and they probably have no clue either.
honey...hardly anyone in the world lets the real them shine through for all to see...u r not alone...just dont let ED be what people see...he is not a good rep
I am glad to hear that today was a better day for you!