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- The funeral home is getting snippy with me at this point of trying to wrap things up. Almost demanding. Well, I still hold firm to my resolve to not sign off till they get it right. I have to work totally around their schedule, it seems. The...
- Waking up tired after a long, busy weekend. I participated in two garage sales, making only $25 for myself personally. I piled everything back into my garage. I plan to take at least a couple boxes to Goodwill. I feel shipwrecked. Two...
- I experienced a few moments of happiness over the weekend and yesterday, but it's all gone again. Is this normal in the grieving process? Perhaps it had to do with spending my birthday completely alone; I am not sure. But that empty, sad, lost...
- The question was asked how can I find love again after a tremendous loss. I really don't know how to respond, because so far (this time) I have not even dated in a space of a year and 5 months, which is how long I've been a widow. One thing is for...
- I am having an emoji kind of day. My new grandson was born about an hour ago. Of course I am over 2500 miles away. They named him Sam after my other late husband - actually Samuel Jack. My father-in-law's name was Samuel James, and Sam was...
- Late tonight I went to the store to pick up a few items. The store was pretty empty, but there was this one man in front of me in the checkout who reminded me of my LH. He was tall - and he was skeletal. It was obvious that he had cancer; I...
- I have been working in my garage today. I also washed my car - sort of. I need to buy a new sprayer, but the car's cleaner than it was before. I also repaired my backyard gate, by hammering the rusty nails back in. I hired two men to...
- I was talking to a visitor after church service tonight - actually my pastor's mother-in-law who is watching his kids while he and his wife are in Hawaii. I told her about my losses, and she said, "Who knows, you might meet someone else." She...
- Sometimes I feel like I am talking to the wall, even on here. I guess the venting does help, but lately it's like there's no one who cares to respond. Maybe it's that I don't have anything interesting to say; I don't know. So that would be my...
- Back to doing car maintenance. My son had checked my fluids a few days ago, and my oil was low. I had a gallon jug of oil in the garage, but when he started to pour it in, it was used oil (probably his). So I go to Walmart and buy oil. It has...
- It has been a year and 4 months now. I really want to take some positive steps at this point. I saw a man from a distance yesterday whom I had been attracted to last year, and there were no feelings one way or the other. I don't know that I am...
- I got a couple standard medical procedures out of the way this afternoon (and crossed those off my list). After that I did a little shopping. I saw Kermit from a distance, still as reptilian as ever. I have bent over backward the past few days...
- I know this is a special time of remembrance of the Resurrection, but there is still the "death" part of the event. My church scheduled way too many actiivities. I had to forego one this morning. I don't have the energy to go back to back. I...
- Well, I actually drove twenty miles out of town tonight to visit a friend who was in the ER. It wasn't as hard as I thought it would be, although my LH had been in this hospital also. I called it an adventure. My life does get hum drum boring...
- This is about the quietest it's ever been on here. I think we all have to back away at times. I just have a habit of checking every little bit to make sure I haven't missed out on anything. I don't really have much to say at the present time.