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I have two choices : It's 8PM I'm tired. I can go to sleep now, wake up at 11 and be awake until 4 in the morning - or I can try to stay up three more hours but will most likely get to what I've...

 From John Chapter 20 NIV 19On the evening of that first day of the week, when the disciples were together, with the doors locked for fear of the Jews, Jesus came and stood among them and said,...

Very little time on DS today.Went to Walmart - wore myself out. Panic attack into and out of nap.Then i called into a radio program!! got some good advice. give up perfectionism for excellence and...

Good therapy session today.  Left feeling a little more hopeful.  I will get through this!!!!  I did yoga today.  Because of the DM, just kneeling with my knees on the floor and sitting on my...

just wrote this up and sent to my therapist and a few other people. these are not needs i expect or even think can be met by an on-line community like DS, but i want to share.First a little...

So, I've made two goals - yoga and DDR (Dance Dance Revolution)Each 20 times in the next 30 days, at least ten minutes each.Did both today! 

I've been going steadily downhill for atleast a week.  I e-mailed my therapist Sat. to see if she was seeing people this weekend (she does sometimes) but she wasn't.  Then I asked if sh Yesterday...

How do you judge if a therapist is helpful or not?  Is making good suggestions or not? I chose her because I knew I felt comfortable enough to feel my emotions in front of her - and I know getting...

why do i cut? why do i want to? why is life so difficult? why do i feel hopelessly lost? what can i do to change this? i cut today. 2 weeks since the last time. i gave my blades up last night,...

For those of you who may have followed my status updates yesterday - I'm okay.  Yesterday for some reason cutting was just really tempting, and I was in a bad place.  Depression was with me all...

Beth85DialoguePosted on 03/21/10, 02:51 am"jesus, i'm tired""sweetheart, I know."" Jesus, this world is so full of pain, not just mine but others too.""Come close to me. I see your pain, and I feel...

So I tealized the two times I cut recently were Thursdays. Thats the day after therapy, and also the day worship team rehearses for chapel the next morning. i sjipped out on worship team this week....

Major panic attack coming on. Working real hard on keeping that breathing steady. Could tell a housemate but that might not help. Safer to hyperventilate in bed, behind closed doors. ...

I did it again. Last night I cut. I can't stand the anxiety, or the emotions lying underneath.Today, looking at it, I feel like a hypocrite. Self-abuse can be found in animistic religions used to...

I had a good session today.  We talked about what it was like for me growing up as the 2nd of 8 kids in a homeschooling family, and some of the family dynamics, and how I responded to them as the...