Ambrosia6

I'm in denial again.  I don't think the SA happened.  Maybe it didn't.  The memory is so elusive. I was just doing the workbook for group and it asks "Describe your feelings towards those people...

I've been on this site for two weeks now.  Sometimes it's a little overwhelming, seeing everyone's struggles, but a lot of the time it's helpful to know there's others out there struggling like I...

Gluten free for 2 weeks!  I'm about ready to eat every cookie, muffin, cake, and pastry I can find in the baked goods department - followed by a box of oreos.  But I'm sticking with this for...

I'm up at 3 AM.  But I stayed in bed until 3 PM.  Serves me right. I'm feeling weird . . . dissociating type stuff.  I just want to sleep.  I see my therapist tomorrow - i totally flooded her...

Okay, I here's the joke, but I switched it up to make suicide less appealing.  Before it was like when you get the hospital bill from when you went to the psych ward and say, "Geez, maybe I shoulda...

I found some resolution to the confusion of the other night.  I've written out in a metaphor below. If you aren't familiar with the story of the Israelites and their wandering in the desert, then...

Idont understand I don't understand I don't understandI'm in the deep end. Talk, beth, talk. Silence...I reached out will someone answer in the morning?I'll have a lot of anxiety tonight. Ill feel...

Day 6 of gluten free!  The rashes on my hands and face do seem better, though not completely gone.  It's hard to judge if my energy level is higher. I've been gorging myself on gluten free...

Some of the group discussions are becoming to triggering for me.  I need to step back.  I like to 'keep up' with the forums I'm on, read everything and make sure I don't miss anything, but it's too...

I experiencing some anxiety symptoms.  Walking is taking extra effort, can't focus, typing faster than usual, cosncious of breathing - yeah. Deap breath.  I have 3 options. 1) close the bedroom...

Went grocery shopping at Sprouts today.  Bought some gluten free products, and then lots of fruits and veggies.  I don't generally eat a lot of fresh produce, but I know i'm going to be wanting to...

I was given a link to this website for the sexual abuse support group several months ago.  Today I finally decided to join, afraid that I would feel overwhelmed reading through the topics.  But it...

overate and didn't exercise yesterday and the day before, so I didn't bother to post.Today was a lazy day.  Went to the gym in the afternoon and got a little homework done.  Counted calories and...

Good trip to the gym this evening.  Met with the trainer and he showed me how to use a few more of the strength training machines.  Then I hopped on the elliptical for 45 minutes while watching a...

Fourth day to the gym in a row. HIGH FIVE :) I weighed myself this morning hoping to have lost another half pound.  Nope - gained 4!!!  Must be because it's that time of the month.  I'm hoping...