Ambrosia6

It's not fair.  Yet it happens all the time.  Unrequited Love.  I love him.  I trust him.  I would be willing to give myself up for him.  He thinks of me as a friend and no more.  My life is...

To the tune of "The Yellow Rose of Texas" Oh, the crazy roads of Texas,with stops signs that I don't see!Sometimes I go straight through them,Don't think they're there for me.Then other times I stop...

I have finally accepted that I have DID.  What a journey this has been!  First anxiety and depression starting in 2006, then realizing that that's not just going to go away with rest.  Then...

Read the following excerpts, then my question. From Bill Gillham's book "Lifetime Guarantee: Making your Christian Life Work and What to Do When It Doesn't" pp 50-51..."If you have accepted Jesus as...

It's been a month since the last time I cut.  I seem to be in a once a month pattern.  So now i have to try to break it and go two months.  The last week or two have been really rough.  Tempted...

I think I understand the contrast between vs. 2 and 5 now.Galatians 51Brothers, if someone is caught in a sin, you who are spiritual should restore him gently. But watch yourself, or you also may...

Galatians 51Brothers, if someone is caught in a sin, you who are spiritual should restore him gently. But watch yourself, or you also may be tempted. 2Carry each other's burdens, and in this way...

Okay - that schedule is not working.  New sleep schedule is in order. Bed at 9, up at 7, nap 1:30-3:30.  Now, this requires moving a class I teach, so I need to talk to the parents and see if we...

Last night I lay down at 9:30, but had some dissociation and anxiety going on, so couldn't fall asleep.  I finally did around 10:30 after taking ambien. Up at 7 again.  I've been doing good with...

I ended up napping from 4:30-8 yesterday afternoon.  Then I couldnt' fall asleep until 1AM.  I still got up at 7 this morning.  Then I had a nap from 2:00-4:30.  It's 9 now and I'm ready to...

Lights out at 10:15 last night.  A friend called at 11 and I didn't even hear it!  Unfortunately I left my ipod on repeat so I woke up at 3:30 with it still playing.  Wasn't awake long though. ...

I'm going stir crazy.  I need to see people more.  But I also am dissociating a ton so I don't want to be out when that's going on. I just decided to flip a coin about church tonight - there's two...

There's few places you can be brutally honest about how you feel.  This is one of them. Right now I feel like saying "Why doesn't God just kill me now and get it over with?" I know that's just a...

I just thought I ought to write an entry since it's been a month since the last one.  Not much to say though.  The disability is in the lawyers hands.  I signed all the papers I'm supposed to.  I...

I'm STRESSED.  Talked to a lawyer today about disability.  She said it would take 6-12 months to get a hearing.  Then 3 months after that for it to be processed.  I turn 26 in January and need to...