vivianvr

this week was nuts.  a friend of mine passed away on friday which made me feel that i really need to live for today and not wait (like the way i always have been doing) but there are other things in...

i wanna go out, i dont wanna go out, its Sunday, I feel like hanging out, dancing...but grrrr.... am i too old to do so? is it silly?  Husband kinda invited me over for dinner, ugh

my husband and i had a conversation/situation this past week.  I found him sending an IM to someone asking them to get a hold of him, a girl, well, long story short, it shouldn't matter because our...

I have probably written this before... I am so lonely.  Right now, I feel like I cant focus, nervous,  anxious.  I have too much to keep me occupied for a good while.  I have school work, I have...

I was wanting to feel good about myself, thought a change of hair would help.....I feel worse. I look like a round boy 

I feel so irritated today, annoyed and frustrated.  I am trying not to have these feelings because really nothing tragic has happened there is an alteration that is occurring but not anything...

I will be 34 next month, my husband has left me againI our reconciliation only lasted 4 short months.  It's a bitter sweet ending. He is amazing and wonderful but not for me. I miss him but I know...

Since July my life has changed so much. I had an amazing love affair with a Dominicawoohoo made me feel great my separated husband found out about him which made him want me back, we got back...

I havent written in a while. I was living a fake life, seeing my seperated husband once a week just enough to keep me feeling okay.  After 3 years of having a fake relationship he made the move to...

I did great this weekend! i didnt go over board or balls out nuts!  I stayed within my range and i worked out Fri and Sat!  I feel great on that level.  God willing I can keep it up.

So, lets see.... i am moving foward...still married....still seperated....still overweight Today, again...or i should say..is another Day 1. but maybe if i actualy keep a journal i can change my bad...

Realizing that i am "waiting" I have been paying atention to my actions and NOT waiting.  It has gotten better.  I am doing things.Yesterday i ran/walk it really hurt my legs, i was discouraged...

I have the tools here at home to do amazing things but i seem to not even scratch the sufrace.  How is it that i have so much to better my mind, body and emotions and i never do anything?  Yes I am...

Why is it easier said than done!!

I am just down. I cant figure out why.  I dont know..... But it has me feeling down for things that i dont even feel i really care about.