Tools

I have the tools here at home to do amazing things but i seem to not even scratch the sufrace.  How is it that i have so much to better my mind, body and emotions and i never do anything?  Yes I am seperated and go thru some sort of seperation motions but still.... i have things to keep me busy, things i want to do and then the time comes to be able too do it and all i do is come up with excuses why i cant do anything and check my phone every 4 min.!!!  Im crazy!
Im overweight...I eat wrong, i feel ill, so why cant i just do it and change? Ive got everything to help me change but i dont change!  i have so much to read but do i read any of it? Nope.  I spend more time drinking, eating and feeling ill about it all instead of Do-ing.  Why am i a wantER and not a doER?  It makes me angry that i waste time...It makes me just ... I need an overhall!!!!