vivianvr

It could be worse. and thank God its not. All is good here, but i get bored.  I get lonley and bored. and i want to call him but i know that its not a good idea, there is no reason to call him or...

about this time is when i want to call. then i realize if i call, what will i say, i really dont have anything to say... no reason in saying "i miss you" because 1. i miss him like 25% 2. what is it...

its been a week, its getting better.  This is for the best. He and I are civil, so thats good.  I am not angry at him at all or ever.   I got a wii.... It is so much fun! The best thing I could...

Friday my H and i got into a fight. I was out with my friend, too drunk to drive home so i spent the night at his house, he is gay by the way, and i somehow on a drunk stuper got in touch with my...

I cant stop crying. last night in bed i couldnt stop...this morning here at my desk, i feel it welting up. I dont know whats going on.

I cant power walk, its hard! but i walked as comfortably and quickly with out over doing it for 30 min. I did jog a little because it was eaiser for like 5 min.

School is keeping me too busy. thats a good thing. I do however find my self with resentment and anger towards others for no good reason. My husband went to visit his brother in Seattle and i was...

i got my tooth pulled... and the pain of lonliness totaly wins over the wisdom tooth that came out.  Im sad, im depressed. when i think its getting better i have moments where i am sitting and i...

my husband and i got into a fight..my fault, his fault..a mess my car got towed from the apartment complex needless to say it was my fault im angry. i'm fed up, and tired.

well, the H and i had a good talk last week, he is out of his bad moods and treating me with respect which is always nice, thats all i wanted any how, i know that our situation wont fix but thats...

i had a blast, a good time in costa rica and panama and on my way back home, in the plane i started crying.. i didnt want to return at all. i wasnt ready.  now i am here and i feel like i am worse...

i did it, i booked a flight, going to costa rica!!! ive told no one yet, i just decided and here it goes!  this is my first major step at living my life!!

my weekend was fine but it seemed like i let it go sour.today there were so many things going on, my best friend wanted to play some tennis, my brother n wife were having a bbq and invited me over, a...

I feel slow, sad and still.  I am not moving foward i am waisting time.  i am hanging on to these feelings which make no sense.  i am sad that its not working but then i know its the right thing....

Everybody goes thru it, a few days your on top of the world then something happens and you fall....I am good i am good i keep telling my self, i feel it but why when we had "the talk" yesterday did i...