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I just feel numb and walking around like a zombie.  I don't know why.  All this happened years ago.  It's just making sense of it all,or not even that.  Just recognising what it is. I don't know...

OK.  I just don't know what to do with this.Until yesterday I thought I was 'just' sexually abused when I was 13 years old.  And that exN was nasty because it happened once towards the end of our...

I feel that I would rather be alone than with somebody that hurts me! I just want to be alone after I move out.I spoke a lot with my Mum and bff, and they both agree, and are supportive, which...

So, these are some of the things I learnt about BDP so far - a lot of it thanks to you Guys here os DS - , and injected my own experience with BDPX.To ID BDP: Not very straight forward.  Pay...

Susy P sent me a link to this website the other day and it really helped me to learn more about NPD and BPD. Whereas I knew that exN was definitely NPD, now I know that BPDX IS really BPD!I can still...

BPDX was so abusive yesterday again, I really thought he was going to hit me, and he walked out eventually, because he was so mad at me, shouting and swearing, and pushing me when I tried to reason...

After an awful Sunday evening and Monday morning (him throwing tantrums, swearing and shouting at me and threatening me on a couple of occasions, and saying horrible things, then apologising for the...

What he is doing is total headfuck, he said last night (after 2 arguments, and I got home at 20:30 after spending the weekend with my bff, who has a lovely hubby and a gorgeous 2.5 year old baby girl...

When I got home tonight he asked if I wanted to talk. After the events this baffled me. What's there to talk about?? I asked him this, and he said 'about last night'. I said that apart from him...

So as I said before, my bf was emotionally abusive and threatening and exactly 2 weeks ago I told him that I won't do this anymore and that it's over.  I felt relieved and scared at the same time.On...

After the events on Friday I broke up with him (after he started going on about breaking up AGAIN, after he got nasty about yet another non-issue) and I cancelled our relationship on FB. He didn't...

Just been trying to keep out of his way. After we 'broke up' on Friday, yesterday he was lovely and on his best behaviour, saying stuff like 'no decisions are final yet' and that he loves me and we...

So, today I spoke to one of my friends (she used to be in an abusive relationship and I knew she would understand), she is not a v close friend but we used to wok together and always got on well....

I started reading 'Why does he do that?' by Lundy Bancroft when it arrived today and on page 29 it says "Track down his ex partner and talk with her as soon as possible".  My bf is American and I am...

My bf looks like he is v supportive, but the way he says things are just so blunt sometimes, and even though he says that they are neutral statements (which they are) the way he says them sounds so...