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When I got home tonight he asked if I wanted to talk. After the events this baffled me. What's there to talk about?? I asked him this, and he said 'about last night'. I said that apart from him...

So as I said before, my bf was emotionally abusive and threatening and exactly 2 weeks ago I told him that I won't do this anymore and that it's over.  I felt relieved and scared at the same time.On...

After the events on Friday I broke up with him (after he started going on about breaking up AGAIN, after he got nasty about yet another non-issue) and I cancelled our relationship on FB. He didn't...

Just been trying to keep out of his way. After we 'broke up' on Friday, yesterday he was lovely and on his best behaviour, saying stuff like 'no decisions are final yet' and that he loves me and we...

So, today I spoke to one of my friends (she used to be in an abusive relationship and I knew she would understand), she is not a v close friend but we used to wok together and always got on well....

I started reading 'Why does he do that?' by Lundy Bancroft when it arrived today and on page 29 it says "Track down his ex partner and talk with her as soon as possible".  My bf is American and I am...

My bf looks like he is v supportive, but the way he says things are just so blunt sometimes, and even though he says that they are neutral statements (which they are) the way he says them sounds so...

Yeah, you see, this is my problem!  That they know what they are doing is wrong; but awareness doesn't equal change! It is the oh-so-important first step.  Also, if they have the capacity to...

I can't believe I did it again!! I'm so upset! These 4 characteristics (Explosive rage, being extremely nice, not liking people and pity) exactly describe my current 'relationship'! I'm in so much...

This is definitely for us and gives me comfort. I wanted to put it down here because I had a very strong urge to email it to BPDX yesterday when I read it (I heard it on the radio before but...

I just feel like I'm a machine. That I'm on autopilot. I had a few great days since I went NC and I definitely feel happier and much better. But yesterday was my birthday and even thou it's better...

I am looking forward to my future.With BPDX gone I feel so much better, it's unreal!!  He made me think I won't be able to live without him.  If stuff overwhelms me, I just take it one step at the...

There is so much stuff going on in my head. This morning I spoke to one of my BFFs and told her about yesterday and Saturday. I said, why would he say that I said something when I know I didn't?? ...

I just feel so messed up and upset.On Tuesday I was on the phone to BPDX having a decent conversation after his weekend shenanigans as per my last JE. One of my best friends called on my other phone...

I hope one day I can achieve that I don't need another person to prove my existence's worth, or anything external to me to prove my existence. In a relationship (may that be an intimate one or a...