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I'm so so so pissed off!!!!!There is this girl at work.  I used to work with her at the last company I worked at.  Then she left, and we loosely kept in touch.  I was made redundant a year later...

This is definitely for us and gives me comfort. I wanted to put it down here because I had a very strong urge to email it to BPDX yesterday when I read it (I heard it on the radio before but...

I just feel like I'm a machine. That I'm on autopilot. I had a few great days since I went NC and I definitely feel happier and much better. But yesterday was my birthday and even thou it's better...

I am looking forward to my future.With BPDX gone I feel so much better, it's unreal!!  He made me think I won't be able to live without him.  If stuff overwhelms me, I just take it one step at the...

There is so much stuff going on in my head. This morning I spoke to one of my BFFs and told her about yesterday and Saturday. I said, why would he say that I said something when I know I didn't?? ...

I just feel so messed up and upset.On Tuesday I was on the phone to BPDX having a decent conversation after his weekend shenanigans as per my last JE. One of my best friends called on my other phone...

I hope one day I can achieve that I don't need another person to prove my existence's worth, or anything external to me to prove my existence. In a relationship (may that be an intimate one or a...

I just feel numb and walking around like a zombie.  I don't know why.  All this happened years ago.  It's just making sense of it all,or not even that.  Just recognising what it is. I don't know...

OK.  I just don't know what to do with this.Until yesterday I thought I was 'just' sexually abused when I was 13 years old.  And that exN was nasty because it happened once towards the end of our...

I feel that I would rather be alone than with somebody that hurts me! I just want to be alone after I move out.I spoke a lot with my Mum and bff, and they both agree, and are supportive, which...

So, these are some of the things I learnt about BDP so far - a lot of it thanks to you Guys here os DS - , and injected my own experience with BDPX.To ID BDP: Not very straight forward.  Pay...

Susy P sent me a link to this website the other day and it really helped me to learn more about NPD and BPD. Whereas I knew that exN was definitely NPD, now I know that BPDX IS really BPD!I can still...

BPDX was so abusive yesterday again, I really thought he was going to hit me, and he walked out eventually, because he was so mad at me, shouting and swearing, and pushing me when I tried to reason...

After an awful Sunday evening and Monday morning (him throwing tantrums, swearing and shouting at me and threatening me on a couple of occasions, and saying horrible things, then apologising for the...

What he is doing is total headfuck, he said last night (after 2 arguments, and I got home at 20:30 after spending the weekend with my bff, who has a lovely hubby and a gorgeous 2.5 year old baby girl...