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  heyo

  Posted by: acous15

  Posted: 06/20/2018

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  you know people just don't get alot, they don't get alot of things and they think they do. like people need to fucking chill. I was in such a good place and I let him in again, i let him be in my life, i let that damn letter get to me

• Family Issues
  

  fuck family

  Posted by: acous15

  Last Reply: SunCloudJD 06/20/2018

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  fuck family, fuck people who say they have your back and don't i'm done with petty bullshit. like get out with your negitiviy i don't need any more reasons to hate myself. I got that coverd. also fuck people who choose boyfriend or girlfiends over the bestfriend who fucking needs you. they said we were family, well fuck that 

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  *******trigger warring******

  Posted by: acous15

  Posted: 06/19/2018

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  Relasping isn't helpfull but I seem to be doing alot of it. the man who sexually abused me commited suide and i don't know why but it made me feel worse and made my already startign relapse happen. i don't know how to control my temper or my mind and what all the fucking voices say to me. I have a million voices telling me that i am fat and don't need to eat and most of the time when i am stable i can over power the voice and choose. I have an eating disorder and i am a cutter and yeah i...

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  crushing hard

  Posted by: acous15

  Posted: 05/03/2018

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  so there is a new guy i like he is very thing i would want in a realtionship but there one BIG problem.... he is my closest friends ex. I have no clue what i should do she says it would be okay if i was to date him.  i don't belive her though on top of this problem the guy doesn't know that i like him. I don't think he would go for a girl like me but i don't know if i should even find out because of my friend

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  Hug

  Posted by: acous15

  Posted: 01/10/2018

  acous15 sent a hug to 2magicman

  thank you
• Eating Disorders
  

  just back

  Posted by: acous15

  Last Reply: Jillsaundars 01/12/2018

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  my family doesn't know what to say to me about my bulimia they have sent me to rehab but I always get back to my old ways.

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  Joined New Group

  Posted by: acous15

  Posted: 01/10/2018

  acous15 joined the group Eating Disorders.

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  Hug

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  Posted: 01/10/2018

  acous15 sent a hug to 2magicman
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  hurt again

  Posted by: acous15

  Posted: 01/10/2018

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  So I have been offline for sometime now and I have been through hell and back yet another time. People are always saying things get better but this time they got so much worse. I am Alisha my new nickname is bubbles and I get called it all the time now. I was offline so long because I was in rehab working out from an eating disorder called bulimia.It has been a really hard time for me these last few months. I have told more people about my rape assault. But on top of all of this, I started...

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  Relapses

  Posted by: acous15

  Posted: 03/13/2017

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  I thought I was better. But it seems I just had to spend another month and a half gone away to a hospital to fix my eating disorder. Now I'm getting back to my normal life. I know what my mind thinks is wrong but, if it makes me skinny then it's worth this daily pain. They all think I'm better but I just know how to lie to get them to let me be free. I am in total control. 

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  (1-4-17)

  Posted by: acous15

  Posted: 02/06/2017

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  I saw him in person for the first time today. Since new years I have texted him and facetimed him alot but seeing him in person was so much to take in. I didn't know what to do I froze and then ran to the hallway and just crouched down on the wall. He walked over to see if I was okay and he touched my arm in a consoling way but all I could focus on was flashbacks of the night he rapped me. He invited me to his new apartment and I didn't know what to say but I went in not looking for anything...

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  Saying I Love You

  Posted by: acous15

  Posted: 02/04/2017

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  For the first time since new years I told someone I loved them them they hit me with the "I don't feel the same way truck" So life is so bad becuase I never put my emotions on the table and whenever I do I allways end up getting hurt. Pain is just emotions leaving the body right? Don't even know what to do right now. 

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  Hug

  Posted by: acous15

  Posted: 02/04/2017

  acous15 sent a hug to Masked_girl.03