Relapses

I thought I was better. But it seems I just had to spend another month and a half gone away to a hospital to fix my eating disorder. Now I'm getting back to my normal life. I know what my mind thinks is wrong but, if it makes me skinny then it's worth this daily pain. 

They all think I'm better but I just know how to lie to get them to let me be free. I am in total control.