*******trigger warring******

Relasping isn't helpfull but I seem to be doing alot of it. the man who sexually abused me commited suide and i don't know why but it made me feel worse and made my already startign relapse happen. i don't know how to control my temper or my mind and what all the fucking voices say to me. I have a million voices telling me that i am fat and don't need to eat and most of the time when i am stable i can over power the voice and choose. I have an eating disorder and i am a cutter and yeah i sexually abused by my boyfriend who killed himself, the best part tho is that before hanging himself he wrote me a note saying how easy i am and how i wanted it as a slut and whore of a girl. he made me feel like shit. but yea when people ask how i'm doing i want to scream fuck you alot of the time. on top of all of this shit my support system came crashing down on me real hard. like chuck a tun of bricks at me at once hard. they both left and i don't want them back. so yea my life as a whole is amazing and everything is fine. 

I'M BROKEN