hurt again

So I have been offline for sometime now and I have been through hell and back yet another time. People are always saying things get better but this time they got so much worse. I am Alisha my new nickname is bubbles and I get called it all the time now. I was offline so long because I was in rehab working out from an eating disorder called bulimia.It has been a really hard time for me these last few months. I have told more people about my rape assault. But on top of all of this, I started using drugs again and I have now almost died 3 times. In rehab, the first weeks were hell because I wasn't getting high and when I came down I came down hard. I lost friends and family that I might not be able to get back. I really nervous because this is my first day out of rehab and I just got home. No one in my family really knows what to say to me. I hope I keep writing here and getting advice because it has been really helping me. 

-Bubbles