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- i can always feel a change in my mood once the temperature drops. soon the sun won't warm me anymore; soon i will be stuck inside because of the cold and snow; normally i would say that soon i would relapse and fall into a deep depressive state...
- i returned home from treatment a few weeks ago and i was there for about a month. it was an incredible experience which was very insightful and i went through a lot while i was there. however, now that i'm back i'm scared. i'm scared to relapse. i...
- in about 2 weeks i will be checking into a treatment facility for major depression. if i am being honest i'm scared and i'm sort of confused on how to feel about going. i'm hopeful that i'll receive some sort of help and knowledge about my...
- i'm sick. i'm sick of myself. i'm sick of putting other people's emotions before my own. i feel like if i was a match i would be almost burnt into nothing but ash. i'm at my end. my breaking point. today was my birthday and i felt absolutely...
- i thought i was doing better. i guess i had so much hope that my meds would just magically work but this is the real world and shit sucks. so i'd been taking my meds and nothing happened. then i switched to different meds and nothing. i am tired and...
- they always say "you have such a bright future ahead of you, you can do it" or "don't give up just keep smiling". well i have news for you people. every single person on this earth goes through something differently every day. no one knows what...
- i cut today. i had to in the moment. cutting felt like something i was obligated to do. i was sad/mad at myself and others and it was my only release. now, however, i feel ashamed and like i'm stupid for doing so... anyone ever cut and then feel bad...
- first session today with a new doctor.. i hope all will go well. wish me luck
- i had a terrible day. i won't go into detail but a lot of my plans fell through and i was blamed for that entirely. i was treated badly throughout the day but a part of me feels like i deserved it. maybe the words and taunts are true and i should...
- i can't really see my future anymore. tonight i gave in. i cut for the first time in a long time because i had been out with some friends and i had gotten extremely anxious. i just wanted to go home and curl up in a ball. after i cut, i felt better...
- anyone else feel like a burden? i feel like my illness burdens those around me and they're almost obligated to feel sorry for me. i don't want to be pitied! that makes me feel 10X worse. my best friend knows what i go through and she tries to help,...
- i have been trying to keep myself busy so that i'm not always focusing on my thoughts. however this hardly ever works and i always end up deeper and deeper into a depressed state. i promised my self i wouldn't give in today or that i would not get...
- i've become what i've always feared. but honestly i didn't do much to stop it
- i want to cut so bad. it's the only thing i've thought about for the past couple of days. everything i do brings me misery and i continue to blame myself for certain circumstances. i know i shouldn't harm myself, but we never do what we should or...
- took a walk to clear my head but it only made things more unclear. people keep telling me that exercise will make me happy or put me in a good mood but that's not the case. i was thinking about the fact that i haven't really done much with my life....