i had a terrible day. i won't go into detail but a lot of my plans fell through and i was blamed for that entirely. i was treated badly throughout the day but a part of me feels like i deserved it. maybe the words and taunts are true and i should feel like shit. the other part of me feels like i shouldn't let those words define me and i'm better than that. a part of my struggle is that fact that i feel like one person with two different mindsets. towards the end of my day, or now especially, i am feeling very down and possibly suicidal. i did cut, but that resolves nothing. hopefully my doctor will put me on medication soon. if not, i don't know how much longer i can handle this.
I am new to this group. Is this group for only people who have bipolar or can it be someone who is dating someone who is bipolar?
I've been so happy, motivated, and just doing well for about 3 weeks, but now I'm down again. No one besides my therapist and I know that I have bipolar disorder because my parents don't believe in mental illnesses, but the whole therapy thing is super complicated. She's not really my therapist, but she's the closest thing I've got. I don't know how to explain what it is that I am going through...