Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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noone
noone

i can't really see my future anymore. tonight i gave in. i cut for the first time in a long time because i had been out with some friends and i had gotten extremely anxious. i just wanted to go home and curl up in a ball. after i cut, i felt better for like 2 seconds, and then i felt even worse than before and ashamed. i hate myself for being awkward and closed off and a million other things. my head feels so clouded and i can't hold on much longer. im supposed to have an appt. soon with my doctor, but that time can't come soon enough. i just wish someone could hold me and promise me it will be okay but i know that none of that bullshit is true.

Melise
Melise
Thank you for being so open and honest about your struggles. I understand the want/need to get some type of release. I have some very old scars to prove it. And I can honestly say, it WILL be okay. Deep, cleansing breath. Do something enjoyable/non-stressful tomorrow. And calL to see if you can get a sooner appointment- couldn't hurt to ask. You are very self-aware. You totally got this.
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
g hug for you noone..... Today is a new day and yesterday is past sweetie..... I'm glad that you're seeing a doctor soon.... Once you start a course of treatment life will become much more hopeful... Getting stable will take time and it will take patience ... I know that can be hard but know that we have a treatable disorder and you will find stability..... xo
Susieq
Susieq
That is the illness talking. Yes it sucks. I used to be out going, tons of friends. Now I can't even go to a friends house without having a panic attack. I get it. I lost my therapist and starting with a new one. He is using CBT. Do you have a therapist? Get one and have them work out your issues.
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