MeAndHer

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  testing

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  Posted: 05/06/2020

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  how do i REALLY feel about her?

  Posted by: MeAndHer

  Posted: 03/23/2017

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  well, my best friend is dating my crush, but i never really owned up to myself that i had a crush on her, probably because she's still labeled as a her, but her girlfriend now tells me she's basically trans... so that explains my crush. i don't even know how i feel about it yet. i've often imagined her asking me out, HOPING she'd ask me out, but then i would start feeling uncomfortable, thinking about the fact that she's a girl. but maybe i've sensed all along that she's actually trans. shit,...

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  title

  Posted by: MeAndHer

  Posted: 03/21/2017

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  i keep saying my life is a mess, but what is it exactly that's so horrible?house is a mess. sleep schedule, i think, could be better. no motivation on days off. no motivation or feelings of necessity to call doctors for appointments. (edit, later that day) it's as if my house is the source of my motivation-zapping. it's either the house, or my kid, or my situation. every time i'm in there, it feels the complete opposite of a sanctuary. as if everything is being drained, sucked out of me. my...

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  i'm devastated. or, what the hell can i do now that he's gone?

  Posted by: MeAndHer

  Posted: 02/17/2017

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  i feel frustrated. i feel heartbroken. i feel a deep sadness. i feel lost, as if i'm wandering blindly in the dark, not sure if i'm going to hit a wall, or just keep fumbling along alone in the darkness, feeling too empty to want to go on, but persevering nonetheless, because i'll never fckn give up. but even though i'm not giving up, is that enough? is it enough to live as an empty shell, with no hope of blossoming. i've run out of motivation. i've run out of the drive to reach for,,,...

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  the end. again, finally.

  Posted by: MeAndHer

  Posted: 02/09/2017

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  i'm sorry for giving you some sort of hope by starting to talk to you again. and even *I* started believing there was some sort of hope, kept hoping that you were somebody that you are not. the “connection” we had was only on the surface, the ability to openly and honestly talk via text. but anything deeper or more important than that, that's where we are far too different for me to be able to work with. we have too many differing values, and ways that we view people and the world at...

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  here we go again. or, will this trend-ship ever stop?

  Posted by: MeAndHer

  Posted: 02/05/2017

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  i want to fight for our friendship, even if it means fighting you. what are we hoping for, what are we reaching for. i'm hoping you are not truly an insensitive, objectifying bigot. we communicate so well, we easily connect on an intellectual level. what i'm hoping for is for something deeper to grow between us. so i guess you could say, my hopes are high.and when i said "even if it means fighting you" i mean, fighting the "you" that was a complete jerk to me before, and i'm hoping that was a...

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  the (re-)start of a beautiful friendship. or, how will it end up this time?

  Posted by: MeAndHer

  Posted: 01/30/2017

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  i'm really glad that i have written as much as i did here about nick. it's good to go back and see how i felt, and what he did, and who i was. it's definitely a learning experience. now, i'm talking to nate AGAIN. i need to make sure i come here and write about it, so that i can keep focus. he's hurt me before, and i'm giving him another chance because i can see how it might've just been a one-time fuck-up, as opposed to an actual character flaw of his. like, it could be either one of those,...