i'm devastated. or, what the hell can i do now that he's gone?

i feel frustrated. i feel heartbroken. i feel a deep sadness. i feel lost, as if i'm wandering blindly in the dark, not sure if i'm going to hit a wall, or just keep fumbling along alone in the darkness, feeling too empty to want to go on, but persevering nonetheless, because i'll never fckn give up. but even though i'm not giving up, is that enough? is it enough to live as an empty shell, with no hope of blossoming. i've run out of motivation. i've run out of the drive to reach for,,, whatever. my love is no longer there, and i don't know what the fuck to do.