how do i REALLY feel about her?

well, my best friend is dating my crush, but i never really owned up to myself that i had a crush on her, probably because she's still labeled as a her, but her girlfriend now tells me she's basically trans... so that explains my crush. i don't even know how i feel about it yet. 

i've often imagined her asking me out, HOPING she'd ask me out, but then i would start feeling uncomfortable, thinking about the fact that she's a girl. but maybe i've sensed all along that she's actually trans. shit, i hate crushes.