confusedmoma
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- Good evening everybody. Well, no, it isn't a good evening at all. There are things going in my life that are breaking my heart and making me feel so helpless. I've been sober again for over two years....and I don't want to stray but at the same time...
- Heck yes! Im in such a beautiful place right now that i just HAVE to share a message. I am living proof that this program works! When i came in, my life was a long suffering pit of despair, hopelessness and pain.... 16 months later.... i am in love...
- Sometimes its hard to remember that sobriety is not always going to feel good. If i am not utilizing the tools i have, i will not feel any serenity. Sometimes i have to keep it very simple, and let go, let god. Letting go can be so hard, for my ego...
- hello to all you wonderful people on ds. i havent been on this site as much as i used to when i first joined, but i thought id update my recovery journey a little bit and pass on a bit of my story. i first sobered up in oct of 2007, and stayed...
- Hi y'all...its been a long, slow journey through this wonderful program of recovery..aa rocks...but anyways, last nite i stumbled upon some information about ego smashing....."i am nothing" "the doughnut in the hole" "i am nothing special" and so on...
- last night i had one of those all too realistic nightmares. I dreamt i had woken up to a hangover. the kind where u want to hide under a rock and never be found. the kind of hangover where you are absolutely mortified, shamed and crippled in fear of...
- It's like walking around in a daze....unreachable....a sad, lonely empty feeling...i want to be interested , but the energy it takes to give a damn isnt there...frustration.....sadness....a feeling of not being connected....not being like everybody...
- Hey y'all. My name is Sandi and i got sucked into the insanity of cocaine use...i have tried it before, but this is the first time i have been addicted. Its crazy how my mind and body is so preoccupied with the urge, the want.. i messed up so...
- Hey y'all... man oh man, i messed up. The last time i was on here, i was sober. I almost made it to three years. But i relapsed. For two long months. I created mayhem. My life turned upside down. I lost everything, including myself... i was on that...
- I am having a hard time remembering all the bad things... why does that happen? When i think of him, i feel like im making a mistake... like maybe i shouldve just madeit work out... he moved out... its over... 12 years of my life gone, just like...
- Ive been dealing with depression since i was a young teenager and i am so sick of it... i hate how i cant get out of bed to get my children off to school... i hate how i have no motivation... no interest... no life!!!!! I hate this depression. I am...
- Hi everybody... i am stuggling so bad today. It all started with facebook, of all places haha but i came into contact with some childhood friends. It was nice to say hi... but when it came down to asking questions about where i have been in life......
- Two years ago today i was broken. I was living in constant fear, shame and guilt fot the kind of life i was living. I hated myself, i was hopeless and digging myself deeper and deeper into that black pit of darkness, despair and pain. I had no hope...
- Hi everybody. Im still working towards serenity. Ive been sober a while now. I've been so busy, and havent been doing all i should in regards to my well being. So recently i've started therapy again, my emotional sobriety. And i just yesterday had a...
- Hello all. Well, i grew up in a severely dyfunctional house. dad was an mean alcoholic, and mom was depressed and emotionally neglectful... so i grew up with out love.. without much of anything. Now it seems im searching for that love i never...