confusedmoma

well i am off to spend some time with my mother tonite. There is a part of me that doesnt want to, but i also don't want to lose her. even though she put me through hell as a child, she has helped me...

well i am off to spend some time with my mother tonite. There is a part of me that doesnt want to, but i also don't want to lose her. even though she put me through hell as a child, she has helped me...

I wasn't feeling well earlier, but now i feel great. It's easy to fall back into the insanity we all occasionally feel. But life can be great if we focus on the small things... life the beautiful...

I went to my first aquasize on wed, and am planning on going once a week! It was so much fun!

I went to a meeting for the first time by myself. I am starting to feel like i belong, and i am feeling much more at ease! Wish i could go every day!!

I am an emotional wreck. I can't even begin to sort out my thoughts, so i will just write as it comes. today i had a bad day. My mother pissed me off, she hurt me... and i can't bring it up to her...

I went to another meeting! yay

Well i went to an aa meetng last night, which was great to be at, but i broke down while speaking and it was embarassing. I do need to prioritize going to meetings to keep my head on straight.

I got up early today, hoping to have a little alone time. I need to start writing down some goals, even simple ones so i have something to work towards.

Today i had a good time spending the day with my mom, which is so unusual. I ususally feel so annoyed and irritated with her, to the point where i couldnt even look her in the eyes. I haven't quite...

Today is kind of a blah day. Not so good, yet not so bad either. It is getting really discouraging to stay home day after day, but i really lack the motivation to do otherwise. Since i've quit...

Today i want to accomplish something. I really need to have some short term goals set for myself, other wise i start to feel like i'm wasting days... i just don't know where to start!!

December 11, 2007Today was an ok day. I've been trying hard to let go of resentments, in order to enjoy my life more. However, i find that i cannot let go of resentments towards my mom. Everytime i...

Hello to everybody out there who is also striving for a better life... it's all a matter of perspective i suppose. Well i have recently read " The Secret" and it was incredible. It's about the power...